COLOURFUL PORTARY OF ONES EMOTIONS

  Going through the internet today I found out about this trend called ''that girl'' , at first I thought it's just another useless trend but it turned out to be quiet remarkable. I too have always wanted to be a certain person of my own who is just the best. So, as you may have figured out this is all about being your best version. For a long time now, I have ignored myself and my own priorities. I have had fair share of ups and downs but I guess where first I looked at the positive side of everything now I have become someone who is just counting all the worst thing that ever happened to me. I am killing my energy as I am going through the worst phase and I am at bottom, if you have had read my earlier post you may know and as I had said before when all things fall apart it's the best time to rebuild something you have always dreamed to create, to invent and to discover   and that is ''that girl''.  WHO IS ''THAT GIRL'' ? I th...

 Finally, It is literally hurting on the inside that I am not being able to keep up with myself. I plan something and then do something totally different. I don't want to be fed up with myself. I know I am more than capable to achieve what I have dreamed of.. Just need a little bit of direction. I have exams in few months and I am not focused at all because of certain circumstances but these circumstances were their when I was 16 and just out of school, they were in certain form, at 17, when I decided I needed to take a drop and study extensively for the medical examination and now again here they come knocking at 18. I don't want to loose this battle I have a promise to keep that I made to myself and someone who is most important  to me too. It's no pressure but I am crumbling. There is no one forcing me but I feel some sort of opposition from what I don't know. Dear Sam, This is 18 years old you. I hope when you read this in future you are what you want to be and in g...

 After all the hard work paid off. I got the appointment for getting my first Covid-19 jab, on 5th June night, at 8:57 pm to be exact and got the appointment for 6th June's afternoon. Well being the fellow human species I think you would know that today in the priority list of every single human species vaccination is at the top. Till now it's the only thing that can protect us from this dreadful corona virus.  Let's start from the beginning, after trying to get the appointment from last month we finally got the timing when the portal gets updated for slot booking and only after three days of hard work on learning to click fast helped me get the slot registered. First, you need maybe two to three people and a phone for alarm. You set the alarm for 20 minutes before the slot opens, then the fastest computer operator of your home sits on the computer, someone along their side to keep a close eye on the available slots and lastly maybe few family members to hype you up and mag...